Well... I am just at work and was thinking about one of my father figures, Matt. There are no words that can ever express the gratitude I have for him. He taught me so many unforgettable things... the most important- Fathers really DO exist!!!
I got a phone call yesterday at work from Laura, one of my best friends. I have known Laura for years now... like 12ish. She told me her father had passed away. I was taken away in that instant. I never thought when I grew up, I would have friends face the same problems I had as a young child, when my dad passed away. Memories and the lack of memories I had with my dad. Knowing the lack of memories are going to affect my friend so much more than the memories she already has.
I have always wondered what life would be like with a father around all the time, with a father who would stay up late when I came home late, to dance with a father at my wedding, to have him give me blessings when I needed them... I have always wondered...
I am lucky though... since I never really knew my dad, it has never been too difficult not having him around. I have known nothing else. I would have nothing to compare my life to.
There is so my going on in my head right now. The only thing that keeps everything ok is the knowledge I have. The knowledge of the gospel seems so priceless at these times. At these moments we are able to apply what knowledge we have obtained to one of the most inevitable experiences of our lives.
I was thinking, on my way home from work last night, how I now understand how people can be mad at God at these times. I am grateful for the knowledge that I have- and because of that, I don't take out my frustrations on the Lord, instead I plead for Him.
I do know this is the true church of Jesus Christ. There is no doubt in my mind. He loves us! and He wants us to do all that we can so we may be able to return to Him someday.
I love you all!!!
Friday, October 31, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
Blah Blah Blah
I never can think of an exciting title... so ya get that!!
Nothing is really TOO exciting in my life. I feel like my life is exactly the same everyday. Not fun. No, not at all. I am not joking either.
Wake up and get ready
Go to school- if Friday- I just go to work for approx. 12 hours. It's great!!
Listen to teachers talk... blah blah blah
Go to school
Think about doing homework
Watch House
Do some Homework...
And that is about it... Saturday isn't any fun either if that is what you are thinking. I work for approx another 12 hours. I LOVE my LIFE!!! (total sarcasm).
I am totally at a point in my life where I don't know where my life is going. I am finally feeling the incompleteness (new word if it isn't already). Yes, I am going to school. And yes, I have a job. But WHO THE FREAK CARES!! Not me! Is this all there is of me- school, work, school, work, school...you get the point. It just sucks. Not knowing what the future entails!!!
I am not trying to be a downer- but it is just life at this age, when you have nothing but stuff that doesnt matter. Stuff that doesnt have an eternal perspective.
Oh well... such is life as a teenage rockstar!!!
Rock On!!!!
Nothing is really TOO exciting in my life. I feel like my life is exactly the same everyday. Not fun. No, not at all. I am not joking either.
Wake up and get ready
Go to school- if Friday- I just go to work for approx. 12 hours. It's great!!
Listen to teachers talk... blah blah blah
Go to school
Think about doing homework
Watch House
Do some Homework...
And that is about it... Saturday isn't any fun either if that is what you are thinking. I work for approx another 12 hours. I LOVE my LIFE!!! (total sarcasm).
I am totally at a point in my life where I don't know where my life is going. I am finally feeling the incompleteness (new word if it isn't already). Yes, I am going to school. And yes, I have a job. But WHO THE FREAK CARES!! Not me! Is this all there is of me- school, work, school, work, school...you get the point. It just sucks. Not knowing what the future entails!!!
I am not trying to be a downer- but it is just life at this age, when you have nothing but stuff that doesnt matter. Stuff that doesnt have an eternal perspective.
Oh well... such is life as a teenage rockstar!!!
Rock On!!!!
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Conference Weekend!!!
Oh my goodness... Conference was so amazing. TO be honest, this is the first one, since the mission, that I had watched the entire thing. I just watched the Sunday sessions before. I really feel the blessing from watching all of it.
I went to work yesterday and worked from 7am- 5pm. Thankfully, I streamed Conf from BYU TV... the only time BYU will ever appear in a search. I got so much out of the Sat Sessions. As I worked, I listened to the miraculous stories on faith, hope, word of wisdom, and of course the most exciting thing of Conference was knowing there will be a temple in "the greater Kansas City area."
I cannot believe we are going to be getting a temple in KS. My Kansans really deserve it. Right now, it is a full-day trip to the nearest temple. Most wards rent a bus and take everyone to their temple. They bring lunches, have babysitters, and have activities for those who are too young to go to the temple or for those who have to wait for the next session. I started to cry knowing at that moment how so many people from the Missouri Independence Mission are so super excited.
All during the 1st session of conference, I was receiving personal revelation on what I need to do to be a better person and a better Saint.
1. Elder Perry's talk struck me in more places than one: don't mock others, stay out of debt, and get spiritually fueled.
2. Sister Allred: I am responsible to share the gospel to others. This is part of my calling in life.
Elder Hollands talk on angels was so heart felt. I have been thinking a lot about school and work and those both being full-time jobs right now. I think about my family and how I want to be there for them constantly, as well with my friends who need me or I NEED them. This was a comforting talk about how we are never left alone. We have ANGELS watching over us sometime mortal and sometimes immortal. Even if we are not being 100% obedient, angels are still sent to help us and try to encourage us. We fall short, in most cases, but as we pray and earnestly seek the Lord's help, there will come angels to minister to us, to help and protect us, to help guide others to help us. Heaven never seems closer when God manifests His angels here on earth. Those angels we love are our ancestors, close family members, and friends who have passed to the other side. They root for us every step of the way. Even when we are doing all that we can but think there is nothing else we can do, Angels are sent to us to boost us up and to help is make it through are troubled times.
There is so much more of conference I loved, but I want to leave my testimony on these things I know to be true. I know the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is a true church. I know it helps people get closer to our Heavenly Father and Savior. I know Joseph Smith is a prophet called of God, who brought forth the record of the Nephites and Lamanites on the American continent. How great a work is the Book of Mormon. I know when I read, study and soak up the teachings and doctrines my life, even though hectic, is much better and less stressful. I know the Temple is the House of God where we can always receive personal revelation and feel is love for us. I know the Apostles and Prophets that spoke to us at Conference are true prophets of God and we should adhere to their teachings. This is the Church of our Savior.
May God continue to bless us as we strive to live the way we KNOW we should. Amen!
I went to work yesterday and worked from 7am- 5pm. Thankfully, I streamed Conf from BYU TV... the only time BYU will ever appear in a search. I got so much out of the Sat Sessions. As I worked, I listened to the miraculous stories on faith, hope, word of wisdom, and of course the most exciting thing of Conference was knowing there will be a temple in "the greater Kansas City area."
I cannot believe we are going to be getting a temple in KS. My Kansans really deserve it. Right now, it is a full-day trip to the nearest temple. Most wards rent a bus and take everyone to their temple. They bring lunches, have babysitters, and have activities for those who are too young to go to the temple or for those who have to wait for the next session. I started to cry knowing at that moment how so many people from the Missouri Independence Mission are so super excited.
All during the 1st session of conference, I was receiving personal revelation on what I need to do to be a better person and a better Saint.
1. Elder Perry's talk struck me in more places than one: don't mock others, stay out of debt, and get spiritually fueled.
2. Sister Allred: I am responsible to share the gospel to others. This is part of my calling in life.
There is no greater work then Missionary work.
3. Elder Andersen: faith is not a feeling; it's a decision!
4. Elder Aidukaitis: I am who I am because of my faithful parents...well in my case...MOM!!! Go mom!!
5. Elder Oaks: GO TO CHURCH! The sacrament is the most sacred meeting. It is the only place where you can make the same covenant with your family- unity. There will always be despairs, but with the blessing of the Sacrament, they will be easier.
6. President Uchtdorf: Hope isn't a knowledge, it is trusting in the Lord. Faith, hope, and charity unite each other, without one you don't have anything. There is always reason to rejoice even with despair all around us.
So really... there was so much more than those, those are just my personal key notes. The next session took me to an entire different place. Revelation is a powerful thing, but the beautiful thing is, everyone can receive it!!!
Two of the most powerful Apostles for me are Elder Wirthlin and Elder Holland. I someday want to have some of their faith and wisdom. Elder Wirthlin, in his brittle state, still is one of the most powerful speakers and revelators I can think of. His talk on how we need not to get angry, but laugh at those situations became a direct answer to my problems with work and school. I know people aren't perfect, but I seem to expect it in certain situations and with certain people. I need not to get angry at myself when I am not doing what I am supposed to or getting the grades in school that I would like. All I can do is try my best, and if my best falls short, that is where my testimony of the Atonement comes in. The entire purpose of the Atonement is to help us when we fall short and are trying to be better. Everyone has hard times, everyone. We just need to move forward and remember the scripture "And this too shall pass."
3. Elder Andersen: faith is not a feeling; it's a decision!
4. Elder Aidukaitis: I am who I am because of my faithful parents...well in my case...MOM!!! Go mom!!
5. Elder Oaks: GO TO CHURCH! The sacrament is the most sacred meeting. It is the only place where you can make the same covenant with your family- unity. There will always be despairs, but with the blessing of the Sacrament, they will be easier.
6. President Uchtdorf: Hope isn't a knowledge, it is trusting in the Lord. Faith, hope, and charity unite each other, without one you don't have anything. There is always reason to rejoice even with despair all around us.
So really... there was so much more than those, those are just my personal key notes. The next session took me to an entire different place. Revelation is a powerful thing, but the beautiful thing is, everyone can receive it!!!
Two of the most powerful Apostles for me are Elder Wirthlin and Elder Holland. I someday want to have some of their faith and wisdom. Elder Wirthlin, in his brittle state, still is one of the most powerful speakers and revelators I can think of. His talk on how we need not to get angry, but laugh at those situations became a direct answer to my problems with work and school. I know people aren't perfect, but I seem to expect it in certain situations and with certain people. I need not to get angry at myself when I am not doing what I am supposed to or getting the grades in school that I would like. All I can do is try my best, and if my best falls short, that is where my testimony of the Atonement comes in. The entire purpose of the Atonement is to help us when we fall short and are trying to be better. Everyone has hard times, everyone. We just need to move forward and remember the scripture "And this too shall pass."
Elder Hollands talk on angels was so heart felt. I have been thinking a lot about school and work and those both being full-time jobs right now. I think about my family and how I want to be there for them constantly, as well with my friends who need me or I NEED them. This was a comforting talk about how we are never left alone. We have ANGELS watching over us sometime mortal and sometimes immortal. Even if we are not being 100% obedient, angels are still sent to help us and try to encourage us. We fall short, in most cases, but as we pray and earnestly seek the Lord's help, there will come angels to minister to us, to help and protect us, to help guide others to help us. Heaven never seems closer when God manifests His angels here on earth. Those angels we love are our ancestors, close family members, and friends who have passed to the other side. They root for us every step of the way. Even when we are doing all that we can but think there is nothing else we can do, Angels are sent to us to boost us up and to help is make it through are troubled times. There is so much more of conference I loved, but I want to leave my testimony on these things I know to be true. I know the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is a true church. I know it helps people get closer to our Heavenly Father and Savior. I know Joseph Smith is a prophet called of God, who brought forth the record of the Nephites and Lamanites on the American continent. How great a work is the Book of Mormon. I know when I read, study and soak up the teachings and doctrines my life, even though hectic, is much better and less stressful. I know the Temple is the House of God where we can always receive personal revelation and feel is love for us. I know the Apostles and Prophets that spoke to us at Conference are true prophets of God and we should adhere to their teachings. This is the Church of our Savior.
May God continue to bless us as we strive to live the way we KNOW we should. Amen!
Saturday, October 4, 2008
HATE ... is a strong word, but I REALLY REALLY REALLY dont like you...
So HATE... it is a strong word, but I REALLY REALLY REALLY dont like work or school. I thought I was going to graduate in May 09, but now it seems it wont be until July 09. I know, I know...only a couple of months longer, but the fact is... I thought and was planning on being done in May. I got all sorts of excited for nothing. Plus, I was only going to take easy classes but found out that I have a lot more credits than I thought. So I have to take 13 credits each semester as well as work full-time. It super sucks!
Plus, work hates my guts. It is really hard working and going to school- especially when there is only 24 hours in a day. I am always tired, but always needing to do homework. I dont get why some teachers think there class is the only class I am taking or that has homework in... as well as think I dont have a life outside of their class... like I shouldnt have a job or friends or something crazy like that. Super messed up.
Besides all of that, I actually like my classes, it is just hard to focus and get awesome grades as well as work and do awesome at school... plus be this spiriutal/ good person that I know I should be, but justify not being so because I am JUST TOO DARN BUSY!!
Oh yeah... the greatest news of my life is there is going to be a temple built in the greater Kansas City area... I really want to know it is going to me on the KS or MO side... I wonder when we will be able to find out.
When I was serving in Olate, KS; there was a man that told me he sold his land to the Church. I know it was years ago, but apparently it takes time to get all the authorizations and permits. It would be so cool if it was on the KS side. It's just so cool that there will be one in the Missouri Independence Mission. I know those people have worked so hard to get a temple. They deserve it so much.
Conference was super awesome and of course, just what I needed to hear. I now, again, have personal goals I need/ get to work on. I cant wait for Conference tomorrow. I really love receiving this personal revelation.
The church is true! Just as the young Joseph Smith, we can receive the same great revelation he did. We can pray and receive our own revelation. We can know of the surety of the gospel and the blessings that will come to us if we are living righteously. I just LOVE the Christ and all that His plan has and will continue to do for me.
He Loves Us!!!
Plus, work hates my guts. It is really hard working and going to school- especially when there is only 24 hours in a day. I am always tired, but always needing to do homework. I dont get why some teachers think there class is the only class I am taking or that has homework in... as well as think I dont have a life outside of their class... like I shouldnt have a job or friends or something crazy like that. Super messed up.
Besides all of that, I actually like my classes, it is just hard to focus and get awesome grades as well as work and do awesome at school... plus be this spiriutal/ good person that I know I should be, but justify not being so because I am JUST TOO DARN BUSY!!
Oh yeah... the greatest news of my life is there is going to be a temple built in the greater Kansas City area... I really want to know it is going to me on the KS or MO side... I wonder when we will be able to find out.
When I was serving in Olate, KS; there was a man that told me he sold his land to the Church. I know it was years ago, but apparently it takes time to get all the authorizations and permits. It would be so cool if it was on the KS side. It's just so cool that there will be one in the Missouri Independence Mission. I know those people have worked so hard to get a temple. They deserve it so much.
Conference was super awesome and of course, just what I needed to hear. I now, again, have personal goals I need/ get to work on. I cant wait for Conference tomorrow. I really love receiving this personal revelation.
The church is true! Just as the young Joseph Smith, we can receive the same great revelation he did. We can pray and receive our own revelation. We can know of the surety of the gospel and the blessings that will come to us if we are living righteously. I just LOVE the Christ and all that His plan has and will continue to do for me.
He Loves Us!!!
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